I'm struggling to show up online right now


Hey Rebel Reader !

I need to be honest with you. I've been trying to figure out how to show up in this moment.

How do I write about capacity and alignment while watching families get torn apart? How do I talk about career transitions while democracy is crumbling?

It's felt obscene. Like I'm supposed to pretend the world isn't on fire. But going silent doesn't feel right either.

So I wrote something. I'm trying to work through this in real time and maybe you are too.

[Bearing Witness As A Form Of Rebellion]

The core question: What does resistance look like when you can't be in the streets? When you have responsibilities. Constraints. A nervous system that's already maxed out. When you're trying to hold it together while everything feels like it's coming apart.

I'm drawing on what I learned at university, 20 years inside big tech and media watching these systems operate, the patterns I'm seeing with clients right now, and a few philosophical anchors and practices that are keeping me tethered.

Here's where I land: Capacity is the raw material of rebellion.

If we're too exhausted to think clearly, too dysregulated to organize, too fragmented to sustain long-term commitment, we can't resist. We can't build. We can't show up for what's required.

And that's exactly what the system wants.

This isn't your typical piece about self-care. It's me wrestling with the fact that every time we reshare outrage content, we're manufacturing engagement for billionaires. That the algorithm is designed to keep us activated, exhausted, and isolated.

It's also about what we do anyway. How we stay visible. How we bear witness. How we refuse to disappear.

Read it here and subscribe if this kind of writing resonates with you. https://coachwithnicholas.substack.com/p/bearing-witness-as-a-form-of-rebellion

Fair warning: it's longer than usual. I didn't try to package this into something clean. It's messy because this moment is messy.

If you're feeling the same tension, you're not alone.

Let me know what lands. I'm genuinely trying to figure this out as I go.

Be Rebellious.
In solidarity ✊
Nicholas Whitaker
Founder, The Rebellion Collective
rebellioncollective.com

Follow me on Linkedin and Substack

Did someone forward this to you?
Subscribe For Dispatches From The Quiet Rebellion

“Become so absolutely free that your very existence is an act of rebellion.” — Inspired by Albert Camus


Unsubscribe · Preferences

Nicholas Whitaker

Overwhelmed by the hustle and grind? Good. It’s time for Quiet Rebellion | Trusted guide for high performers ready to reclaim their time, energy and attention to focus on what matters | Be Rebellious!

Read more from Nicholas Whitaker

Hey Rebel Reader ! Another quick one before the longest day tips toward evening, and I hit the road again. I'm just back from the IRE conference in Washington DC a few intense days of workshops and lightning coaching sessions with investigative journalists doing the work that holds truth to power. A humbling crowd, and an honor to work with all of them. Heading to Oregon this week for Overland Expo PNW. If you're in the Pacific Northwest, come find me. I'll be showcasing our adventure rig,...

Hey Rebel Reader ! Quick one, because it's happening today. This morning is our monthly Rebellion Collective gathering. It's the room we build for people in transition: navigating burnout, a layoff, the question of what work is even for, or the slower realization that you've lost touch with your body and your joy along the way. Different doorways, same room. We open in presence, share a short talk on the month's theme (this time, the V.O.I.D., the forces quietly draining your capacity), then...

Hey Rebel Reader ! The dates I sent for this month's Awake In The Wild sessions were not the real dates. I had a moment, the calendar had a moment, and you got the wrong information. Here's what's actually happening: Morning Sits with Awake In The Wild May 11th to 14th / 18th to 22nd, Mon to Fri, 7:30 AM PT. Roughly 30 minutes. Free, on Zoom. [Register here] Kit is corrected now, but yesterday's email isn't retroactively fixable. So this is me fixing it the analog way. See you on the cushion!...